| Location | Newton Heath |
| Age | 1 month, 25 days |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 02/08/2006 |
| Date of Death | 27/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 8,346 since 09/06/2008 |
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Millie was born on Wednesday 2 august 2006 and fell asleep on Wednesday 27 September 2006 aged 8
weeks.
she lived in newton heath with her Mummy and Daddy, Louise and John and her brother and sister,
Daniel and Lucy.
Millie also has a baby brother called Louie, he is 7mnths old and another brother called jack who
was born 5 wks ago ♥
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I would like to apologize to everyone for not lighting candles anymore, i really cant cope with
coming on here like i used to. my pain is getting worse and worse with each passing day and being on
here makes it worse at the moment. your angels are always in my thoughts and a big big thank-you for
still taking the time to visit Millie's site and light her a candle and leave tributes and pictures.
its such a comfort that even though I feel like iv abandoned her I know all my gts friends are still
here for her. from the bottom of my heart thank-you.
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I would like to thank each and every person who has lit candles and left tributes for my little girl
it means so much to me. so a big THANK-YOU.
my thoughts are with all of you and your angels.♥
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Millie was born 8 weeks early after a very difficult pregnancy(i suffered with ante-natal
depression, quite severely) there were no special care beds available at my local hospital so we
were sent to Rochdale, its not actually that far but it felt like a million miles away. my labor was
over in minutes once id started to push, in fact it was only one push. I only got to hold my
beautiful baby girl for a couple of minutes before she was taken to s.c.b.u. Having two other
children at home it was impossible for me to stay in hospital and was discharged two days later. I
spent most of my time traveling back and forth rather than with Millie, every day the nurses were
trying to get her transferred to Manchester. I specifically told the nurses that I wanted to be the
one to give her her first bath once she was out of the incubator. I arrived at the hospital one day
to find a nurse that I didn't really very much like was looking after Millie, she informed me very
matter of factly that she'd bathed Millie that morning. I couldn't believe my ears. it was clearly
stated in her notes mum to give first bath all I remember thinking at the time was what if anything
ever happens to her and I never gave her her first bath that thought still haunts me to this day.
After 14 days Millie was finally transferred back to Manchester and came home from there two days
later. it was so nice to actually spend all my time with her, I'd get up at 6am to feed her and I'd
stay up then an just lie on the couch with her, I really treasure those times I had on my own with
her. On Tuesday 26 Sep id been shopping with Millie and my other daughter Lucy, I cooked the tea and
waited for my partner (John) to come home. after tea I cleaned up an got the kids ready for bed, the
usual things. i don't remember what it was even about but john and I argued later on that evening
and I stormed off to bed. I didn't even give my baby a kiss. I just took it for granted I'd be able
to kiss her in the morning. The next thing I knew I was being woken by screams. it was 6am and my
baby was gone. the rest is pretty much a blur, there were ambulance, police, c.i.d. family coming to
take the other children. john went in the ambulance with Millie and I stayed behind with the police.
they took her bedding and bottles and questioned me. i know they have these procedures in place for
the poor little children that are murdered, but its so distressing for innocent people. I felt as
tho it was happening to someone else an I was stood by just watching. i never thought it was
possible to feel so numb. the worst thing was when they said they had to do a post mortem. they
wanted to cut my baby up and i couldn't even stop them. i took so many photos of her head before
they did it. I'm not even sure why I did that. it was 9 days before we got to lay our baby to rest.
she had a beautiful white horse an carriage and the horses were called diamond an bob,(how
appropriate when Millie is my little diamond bobbing in the sky) her flowers were beautiful too. I
imagined that I would hold it together till she was lowered into the ground as I thought that would
be the worst part. wrong. the moment I saw the cars pull up and they came in wanting to seal the
coffin, my heart crumbled into a million pieces. I had to put my baby in that box knowing that never
again would I see her, smell her, touch her, kiss her. even now I cant think about that moment
without crying. in my head I kept telling her that i didn't want to do it, but I had to. its coming
up to two yrs now since Millie died and not a day goes by where I don't think about her or long to
hold her.
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The following poem was read by my partner at our babys funeral.
O precious, tiny sweet little one
you will always be to me
so perfect, pure and innocent
just as you were meant to be.
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We dreamed of you and your life
and all that you would be
we waited and we longed for you
to join our family
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We never had the chance to play
to laugh to rock to wiggle
we long to hold you, touch you
and listen to you giggle
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She'll always be your mother
i'll always be your dad
you'll always be our child
the child that we had
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but now you're gone
and yet you're here
you are our sorrow and our joy
there's love in every tear
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just know our love goes deep and strong
we will forget you never
the child we had, but never had
and yet will have forever.
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This is also the inscription on millies headstone.
The following poem was read out at millies funeral
by my friend michelle.
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Like a flower whose tender petals never quite uncurled,
the child God gave us did not live to grow up in this world.
she did not stay to face the bitter winds of destiny,
but in our hearts, she left a sweet and fragrant memory.
In some other garden with the pain of life unknown,
safe within the fathers care, our little one has grown.........
but though we count the passing years,
the bud does not unclose, for to us,
she will always be........
a rosebud, never a rose...
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Thankyou for taking the time to read my story and thankyou to everybody for the lovely tributes and
candles. they are a great comfort to me. ♥
Please light a candle for my precious baby girl. xxx
Remembrance
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Remembrance is a golden chain
Death tries to break,
but all in vain.
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To have, to love, and then to part
Is the greatest sorrow of one's heart.
The years may wipe out many things
But some they wipe out never,
Like memories of those happy times
When we were all together.
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~Author Unknown~
I hope you dont mind my leaving a tribute for your absolutely beautiful daughter. I have never lost a baby myself but lost my first grandchild before he/she was able to be born in 2002. My thoughts are with you today!
three years is not a long time so why does it feel like forever since i held you in my arms? i miss you so much millie my arms ache to hold you, my heart aches for you. i dont know if i'l ever see you again, i dont know what i believe anymore, if there is nothin after this life then i hope with all of my heart that you knew how much i loved you, how you made me smile just by lookin at me. i hate that i have no real memories of you, u never reached any milestones. you would have started school a couple of weeks ago, i have this picture in my head of you, lookin ever so smart in your school uniform with your blonde hair tied in pigtails and a cheeky smile on your face, how you would rush to me at home time all excited an tell me about your day. i miss the things that will never happen unless i imagine them but thats just not the same is it. i dont know what else to say millie i just cant seem to find the words. i miss you so much sweetheart, i will never ever ever stop lovin you and i hope that when my time is up you will be somewhere waitin for me. all my love baby. i love you so much. mummy. xxx
A Mother’s Love
auther unknown
I didn’t have to look into your eyes
To fall in love with you.
I didn’t have to hear you cry
To know you loved me too.
I didn’t need to hold your hand
To cherish you always.
Within my womb we shared our hearts
You touched my soul
You sweetened my spirit
You gave me memories I’ll always
Hold very dear
Yes, my heart aches since
You departed so soon
But a mothers love does not
End with death
For you are my child
my love is forever yours.
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I send this to you today as this poem says it all
and i thank you for always looking in on my Baby Mark his Daddy and My Mum, Dad and my Brother,
love always sheila xxx
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Tributes For This Weekend
FOR FRIDAY 21ST AUGUST
Grief Is Like A River
My grief is like a river,
I have to let it flow,
But I myself determine
Just where the banks will go.
Some days the current takes me
In waves of guilt and pain,
But there are always quiet pools
Where I can rest again,
I crash on rocks of anger,
My faith seems faint indeed,
But there are other swimmers
Who know that what I need
Are loving hands to hold me
When waters are to swift,
And someone kind to listen
When I just seem to drift.
Grief's river is a process
Of relinquishing the past,
By swimming in Hope's channels,
I'll reach the shore at last.
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FOR SATURDAY
To Those I Love And Those Who Love Me
When I'm gone, release me, let me go;
I have so many things to see and do.
Don't tie yourself to me with tears.
Be happy that we had so many years.
I gave you love.
You can only guess how much that
You gave me in happiness.
I thank you for your love you each have shown.
But it is time I travel alone.
So grieve a while for me, grieve you must;
Then let your grief be comfort by trust.
It's only for a little while we must part.
So bless the memories within your heart.
I won't be far away, for life goes on.
So if you need me, call and I'll come.
Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near.
If you listen with your heart, you'll hear
All my love around you soft and clear.
And then when you must come this way alone,
I will greet you with a smile and a
"Welcome Home!"
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FOR SUNDAY
Tears
Tears are delightful expressions
Of happiness, sorrow, and love,
Made to release deep emotions,
A special gift sent from above.
When seeing sweet thoughts of a loved one
Midst memories of days of old,
A tear finds a cheek in the moonlight
As thoughts reach deep in the soul.
In moments of anger, frustrations and grief,
When happy thoughts flee like a thief,
Running away with our hopes and our cares,
A tear brings welcome relief.
If unwanted sorrow consumes us
And life seems so hard to bear,
With time a soul is healed,
Restored with the help of a tear.
Sun and beauty bring health to the soul
Through all of the days of our lives,
Deepest feelings of thanks are expressed
Through tears which appear in our eyes.
Be grateful for tears for their presence
Restores our most glorious thoughts
Of laughter, compassion and loving,
The most precious gifts of all.
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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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Tiny Angels rest your wings
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand,
And see your tender smile.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear....
That I will forget your precious face
Is my biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
Why you have gone away?
You weren't here for very long....
Why is it, you couldn't stay?
Tiny Angel shook his head,
"These things I do not know....
But I do know that you love me,
And that I love you so".
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