
| Location | Newton Heath |
| Age | 1 month, 25 days |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 02/08/2006 |
| Date of Death | 27/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 8,412 since 09/06/2008 |
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Millie was born on Wednesday 2 august 2006 and fell asleep on Wednesday 27 September 2006 aged 8
weeks.
she lived in newton heath with her Mummy and Daddy, Louise and John and her brother and sister,
Daniel and Lucy.
Millie also has a baby brother called Louie, he is 7mnths old and another brother called jack who
was born 5 wks ago ♥
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I would like to apologize to everyone for not lighting candles anymore, i really cant cope with
coming on here like i used to. my pain is getting worse and worse with each passing day and being on
here makes it worse at the moment. your angels are always in my thoughts and a big big thank-you for
still taking the time to visit Millie's site and light her a candle and leave tributes and pictures.
its such a comfort that even though I feel like iv abandoned her I know all my gts friends are still
here for her. from the bottom of my heart thank-you.
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I would like to thank each and every person who has lit candles and left tributes for my little girl
it means so much to me. so a big THANK-YOU.
my thoughts are with all of you and your angels.♥
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Millie was born 8 weeks early after a very difficult pregnancy(i suffered with ante-natal
depression, quite severely) there were no special care beds available at my local hospital so we
were sent to Rochdale, its not actually that far but it felt like a million miles away. my labor was
over in minutes once id started to push, in fact it was only one push. I only got to hold my
beautiful baby girl for a couple of minutes before she was taken to s.c.b.u. Having two other
children at home it was impossible for me to stay in hospital and was discharged two days later. I
spent most of my time traveling back and forth rather than with Millie, every day the nurses were
trying to get her transferred to Manchester. I specifically told the nurses that I wanted to be the
one to give her her first bath once she was out of the incubator. I arrived at the hospital one day
to find a nurse that I didn't really very much like was looking after Millie, she informed me very
matter of factly that she'd bathed Millie that morning. I couldn't believe my ears. it was clearly
stated in her notes mum to give first bath all I remember thinking at the time was what if anything
ever happens to her and I never gave her her first bath that thought still haunts me to this day.
After 14 days Millie was finally transferred back to Manchester and came home from there two days
later. it was so nice to actually spend all my time with her, I'd get up at 6am to feed her and I'd
stay up then an just lie on the couch with her, I really treasure those times I had on my own with
her. On Tuesday 26 Sep id been shopping with Millie and my other daughter Lucy, I cooked the tea and
waited for my partner (John) to come home. after tea I cleaned up an got the kids ready for bed, the
usual things. i don't remember what it was even about but john and I argued later on that evening
and I stormed off to bed. I didn't even give my baby a kiss. I just took it for granted I'd be able
to kiss her in the morning. The next thing I knew I was being woken by screams. it was 6am and my
baby was gone. the rest is pretty much a blur, there were ambulance, police, c.i.d. family coming to
take the other children. john went in the ambulance with Millie and I stayed behind with the police.
they took her bedding and bottles and questioned me. i know they have these procedures in place for
the poor little children that are murdered, but its so distressing for innocent people. I felt as
tho it was happening to someone else an I was stood by just watching. i never thought it was
possible to feel so numb. the worst thing was when they said they had to do a post mortem. they
wanted to cut my baby up and i couldn't even stop them. i took so many photos of her head before
they did it. I'm not even sure why I did that. it was 9 days before we got to lay our baby to rest.
she had a beautiful white horse an carriage and the horses were called diamond an bob,(how
appropriate when Millie is my little diamond bobbing in the sky) her flowers were beautiful too. I
imagined that I would hold it together till she was lowered into the ground as I thought that would
be the worst part. wrong. the moment I saw the cars pull up and they came in wanting to seal the
coffin, my heart crumbled into a million pieces. I had to put my baby in that box knowing that never
again would I see her, smell her, touch her, kiss her. even now I cant think about that moment
without crying. in my head I kept telling her that i didn't want to do it, but I had to. its coming
up to two yrs now since Millie died and not a day goes by where I don't think about her or long to
hold her.
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The following poem was read by my partner at our babys funeral.
O precious, tiny sweet little one
you will always be to me
so perfect, pure and innocent
just as you were meant to be.
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We dreamed of you and your life
and all that you would be
we waited and we longed for you
to join our family
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We never had the chance to play
to laugh to rock to wiggle
we long to hold you, touch you
and listen to you giggle
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She'll always be your mother
i'll always be your dad
you'll always be our child
the child that we had
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but now you're gone
and yet you're here
you are our sorrow and our joy
there's love in every tear
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just know our love goes deep and strong
we will forget you never
the child we had, but never had
and yet will have forever.
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This is also the inscription on millies headstone.
The following poem was read out at millies funeral
by my friend michelle.
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Like a flower whose tender petals never quite uncurled,
the child God gave us did not live to grow up in this world.
she did not stay to face the bitter winds of destiny,
but in our hearts, she left a sweet and fragrant memory.
In some other garden with the pain of life unknown,
safe within the fathers care, our little one has grown.........
but though we count the passing years,
the bud does not unclose, for to us,
she will always be........
a rosebud, never a rose...
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Thankyou for taking the time to read my story and thankyou to everybody for the lovely tributes and
candles. they are a great comfort to me. ♥
Please light a candle for my precious baby girl. xxx
I miss you so much millie. its 5.40 in the morning and iv not been to bed yet as i wanted to be awake at the time you was born. 4.19am. why did you leave me millie??
millies mommy
SWEETHEART YOU DONT HAVE TO COME TO MILLIE'S SITE ALL THE TIME YOUR LOVE FOR YOUR BABY IS TEN FOLD.. I LOST MY SON WHEN HE WAS 25.. HE HAS SINCE BECOME A GRANDAD AND THAT IS LOVE UNTOLD.. YOUR ANGEL IS BEAUTIFUL... DONT THINK YOU ARE WRONG FOR NOT VISITING HER SITE YOU HAVE HER IN YOUR HEART THAT IS WHAT COUNTS,, GOD BLESS YOU ALL XX SANDY (MAM TO SHAUN WOOD )
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TRIBUTES FOR THIS WEEKEND
♥ My Everything Friend
♥You magnify my happiness
♥When I am feeling glad;
♥You help to heal my injured heart
♥ Whenever I am sad.
♥ You’re such a pleasure in my life;
♥ I hope that you can see
♥ How meaningful your friendship is;
♥ You’re a total joy to me
Thanks For All Your Support
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FOR FRIDAY
THIS MORNING
As The Sun Came Up This Morning
I Watched You There Below
Your Hearts Seemed Oh So Heavy
But There’s Something You Should Know
I’m Not Gone Don’t Worry
I’m Just A Step Ahead
And I’m With You Every Single Day
As You Rise Up From Your Bed
I Am The Sun That Warms You
I Am The Moon’s Soft Glow
I Am The Stars That Twinkle
And Light Your Path Below
So When At Times You Miss Me
Just Look For Me I’m There
For You Cannot Hide My Spirit
It Is With You Everywhere.
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FOR SATURDAY
DO YOU MAKE THEM LAUGH?
Do you make them laugh in heaven
Does your smile bring them good cheer?
Do you make the sun shine brighter
Like you did when you were here?
The very mention of your name
The memories of your smile
The little things you said and did
Are with us all the while.
You meant so very much to us
There's nothing left to say
Except that without you here
There is no perfect day
For no-one knows the heartache
That lies behind our smiles
No-one knows how many times
We have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something
So there won't be any doubt
You're so wonderful to think of
But so hard to be without
We hold you close within our hearts
And there you shall remain
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.
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FOR SUNDAY
SWEET DREAMS
Sweet dreams are all I have of you,
They're all you left behind,
Those cherished, lovely memories,
Never again to find.
On earth you were so wonderful,
No child could I compare
To all the love you gave to me,
You were wonderful, so rare.
Sweet dreams they keep me going
Through the long and lonely nights
How I wish that I could hug you
Here and squeeze you oh so tight.
If I could walk to Heaven,
To see you every day
Just know I'd never want to leave,
I know I'd long to stay.
We parted here on earth my child
As God's will shall be done,
My dreams will become reality
When once more we'll be one.
I will love you for eternity,
Forever and some more,
Because you were the sweetest child,
The kindest and most pure.
If Heaven's full of Angels,
Like you were here on earth,
I thank the Lord for lending you,
For giving me your birth,
One day my child I'll see you there,
So please look out for me,
You'll see my smile so wide
Before you see my spirit free.
God takes the sweetest Angels first,
This we know is true,
For he came, looked around
And decided to choose you.
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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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i used to visit other babies tributes and wonder why nobody visited them, i couldnt understand it. i do now. i feel so guilty that i dont visit you here or at your garden anymore, i just cant cope. im so sorry millie. i love you so much and you are with me every second of every day in my heart. i will always love you and i will never ever forget you my darling. xxxxxxxx
all my love and more forever and ever, millions and millions. mummy. xxxxxxx
Dear All,
As this is going to be a difficult week for our family I am lighting the candles & tribute for this week today.
I want to make sure all your angels don’t miss out on the candles and tributes I hope you all understand
I will be back on Sunday with Monday’s candle
It would have been Christopher’s Birthday on Wednesday, he was on his way home from having a drink to celebrate his 27th Birthday when the accident happened and sadly he died 2 days later.
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In our hearts your memory lingers
Sweetly tender, fond and true,
There is not a day, dear angel
That we do not think of you.
For Mon
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We know that you're beside us,
In everything we do,
But life's just not the same
Now that we've lost you
For Tues
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Things I feel most deeply
Are the hardest things to say
My dearest one, I love you
In a very special way
For Wed
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Your life was a blessing
Your memory a treasure
You are loved beyond words
And missed beyond measure
For Thur
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Tribute For The Weekend
I'm sending a dove to heaven
With a parcel on its wings.
Be careful how you open it
It’s full of beautiful things
Inside are a million kisses
Wrapped up in a million hugs
To say how much you mean to us
And send you all our love
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Babies are angels
That fly to earth
Their wings disappear
At the time of there birth
One look in their eye
And we're never the same
They're part of us now
And that part has a name
That part is your heart
And a bond that won’t sever
Our babies are angels
And we love them forever
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It happens without warning
Time and time again
I go along and join the flow
But still remember when
You were there to share it all
That made it all worth while
The memories keep flooding back
And once again I smile
Then reality returns to me
And once again your gone
If only this little dream I have
Could simply just go on
I try and hide the heartache
But I feel it none the less
These are my words I send to you
I MISS YOU……..
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Just the average family
We didn't ask for more.
Then life was changed completely
With that knock upon our door.
This awful thing had happened
And none of us knew why.
You were never coming back again
And we didn't say goodbye.
Our world just fell to pieces
We cried with disbelief.
We had to stick together
To overcome our grief.
We'll never understand it
It all seems so unfair.
We wish we'd hear that knock again
And see you standing there.
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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Tribute for this Special Weekend
HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE
Candles will be lit as usual
On Sunday For Monday
SKY BUNNIES
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The sky is full of bunny clouds
So soft and fat and white,
I wonder if they're hiding eggs
For angels to find with delight.
Because angels like Easter as well, you know,
And there's no reason why
There shouldn't be an Easter hunt
In meadows in the sky.
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THE TINY BUNNY
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The tiny bunny
Is working all day long
Decorating Easter eggs
While humming a song
He is having so much fun
Making eggs for you and me
And small chocolate bunnies
That he gives away free
But when he is finished
He'll bring them your way
In a big coloured basket
Upon Easter day
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A SPECIAL EASTER WISH
This special Easter wish
That comes with love to you
Brings warm and heartfelt thanks
For all the thoughtful things you do--
It also comes to let you know
You mean so much more each day
To everyone your lives have touched
In such a loving way.
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FUNNY BUNNY
Little Easter, the comedienne bunny,
Tried too hard at being funny.
She juggled and she dropped the eggs
They fell and smashed between her legs.
Poor Easter left the stage in shame
And thought that she might change her name.
But then that bunny read this ad,
"This Sunday we need help real bad."
So Easter Bunny kept her name
And through the years has gained much fame,
When Easter's Sunday comes each year.
She delivers eggs and we all cheer.
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
SKY BUNNIES
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The sky is full of bunny clouds
So soft and fat and white,
I wonder if they're hiding eggs
For angels to find with delight.
Because angels like Easter as well, you know,
And there's no reason why
There shouldn't be an Easter hunt
In meadows in the sky.
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Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Might Not Be Lit Until Monday Next Week It's My Birthday On Saturday So I Will Be Missing Christopher Even More Than Usual... Bless Him X
Grief Is Like A River
My grief is like a river,
I have to let it flow,
But I myself determine
Just where the banks will go.
Some days the current takes me
In waves of guilt and pain,
But there are always quiet pools
Where I can rest again.
I crash on rocks of anger;
My faith seems faint indeed,
But there are other swimmers
Who know that what I need
Are loving hands to hold me
When the waters are too swift,
And someone kind to listen
When I just seem to drift.
Grief's river is a process
Of relinquishing the past.
By swimming in hope's channels,
I'll reach the shore at last.
If I Knew
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
That I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
So I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
To stop and say "I love you,"
Instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
So I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
To make up for an oversight,
And we always get a second chance
To make everything just right.
There will always be another day
To say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance to say
Our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
And today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
And I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
Why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
You'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone,
What turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
And whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
And that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
You'll have no regrets about today.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
How does a mother continue without her child
SHE DOESNT
She may eat and she may sleep
She may breath and even speak
But
SHE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME !
I stood by your bed last night
I came to have a peep,
I could see that you were crying
and you found it hard to sleep,
I whispered to you softly
as you brushed away a tear,
its me I havn't left you, i'm well
i'm fine, i'm here,
I was close to you a breakfast
I watched you pour your tea,
you were thinking of the many times
your hands reached out to me,
I was with you at the shops today
you're arms were getting sore,
I longed to take your parcels
I wish I could do more,
I was with you at my grave today
you tend it with such care,
I want to reassure you, that i'm not
lying there,
I walked with you towards the house
as you fumbled for your key,
I gently put my hand on you
I smiled and said 'its me'
you looked so very tired
and sank into a chair,
I tried so hard to let you know
that I was standing there,
its possible for me to be
so near to you every day,
to say to you with certainty
I never went away,
you sat there very quietly then smiled
I think you knew,
in the stillness of the evening
I was very close to you,
now the day is over.....I smile
and watch you yawning,
and say good night, god bless,
i'll see you in the morning,
and when the time is right for you
to cross the brief divide,
i'll rush across to greet you
and we'll stand side by side,
I have so many things to show you
there is so much for you to see,
be patient, live your journey out
then come home to be with me.
Love to you and your mummy millie, from Vicky xxx
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