
| Location | Newton Heath |
| Age | 1 month, 25 days |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 02/08/2006 |
| Date of Death | 27/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 8,413 since 09/06/2008 |
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Millie was born on Wednesday 2 august 2006 and fell asleep on Wednesday 27 September 2006 aged 8
weeks.
she lived in newton heath with her Mummy and Daddy, Louise and John and her brother and sister,
Daniel and Lucy.
Millie also has a baby brother called Louie, he is 7mnths old and another brother called jack who
was born 5 wks ago ♥
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I would like to apologize to everyone for not lighting candles anymore, i really cant cope with
coming on here like i used to. my pain is getting worse and worse with each passing day and being on
here makes it worse at the moment. your angels are always in my thoughts and a big big thank-you for
still taking the time to visit Millie's site and light her a candle and leave tributes and pictures.
its such a comfort that even though I feel like iv abandoned her I know all my gts friends are still
here for her. from the bottom of my heart thank-you.
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I would like to thank each and every person who has lit candles and left tributes for my little girl
it means so much to me. so a big THANK-YOU.
my thoughts are with all of you and your angels.♥
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Millie was born 8 weeks early after a very difficult pregnancy(i suffered with ante-natal
depression, quite severely) there were no special care beds available at my local hospital so we
were sent to Rochdale, its not actually that far but it felt like a million miles away. my labor was
over in minutes once id started to push, in fact it was only one push. I only got to hold my
beautiful baby girl for a couple of minutes before she was taken to s.c.b.u. Having two other
children at home it was impossible for me to stay in hospital and was discharged two days later. I
spent most of my time traveling back and forth rather than with Millie, every day the nurses were
trying to get her transferred to Manchester. I specifically told the nurses that I wanted to be the
one to give her her first bath once she was out of the incubator. I arrived at the hospital one day
to find a nurse that I didn't really very much like was looking after Millie, she informed me very
matter of factly that she'd bathed Millie that morning. I couldn't believe my ears. it was clearly
stated in her notes mum to give first bath all I remember thinking at the time was what if anything
ever happens to her and I never gave her her first bath that thought still haunts me to this day.
After 14 days Millie was finally transferred back to Manchester and came home from there two days
later. it was so nice to actually spend all my time with her, I'd get up at 6am to feed her and I'd
stay up then an just lie on the couch with her, I really treasure those times I had on my own with
her. On Tuesday 26 Sep id been shopping with Millie and my other daughter Lucy, I cooked the tea and
waited for my partner (John) to come home. after tea I cleaned up an got the kids ready for bed, the
usual things. i don't remember what it was even about but john and I argued later on that evening
and I stormed off to bed. I didn't even give my baby a kiss. I just took it for granted I'd be able
to kiss her in the morning. The next thing I knew I was being woken by screams. it was 6am and my
baby was gone. the rest is pretty much a blur, there were ambulance, police, c.i.d. family coming to
take the other children. john went in the ambulance with Millie and I stayed behind with the police.
they took her bedding and bottles and questioned me. i know they have these procedures in place for
the poor little children that are murdered, but its so distressing for innocent people. I felt as
tho it was happening to someone else an I was stood by just watching. i never thought it was
possible to feel so numb. the worst thing was when they said they had to do a post mortem. they
wanted to cut my baby up and i couldn't even stop them. i took so many photos of her head before
they did it. I'm not even sure why I did that. it was 9 days before we got to lay our baby to rest.
she had a beautiful white horse an carriage and the horses were called diamond an bob,(how
appropriate when Millie is my little diamond bobbing in the sky) her flowers were beautiful too. I
imagined that I would hold it together till she was lowered into the ground as I thought that would
be the worst part. wrong. the moment I saw the cars pull up and they came in wanting to seal the
coffin, my heart crumbled into a million pieces. I had to put my baby in that box knowing that never
again would I see her, smell her, touch her, kiss her. even now I cant think about that moment
without crying. in my head I kept telling her that i didn't want to do it, but I had to. its coming
up to two yrs now since Millie died and not a day goes by where I don't think about her or long to
hold her.
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The following poem was read by my partner at our babys funeral.
O precious, tiny sweet little one
you will always be to me
so perfect, pure and innocent
just as you were meant to be.
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We dreamed of you and your life
and all that you would be
we waited and we longed for you
to join our family
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We never had the chance to play
to laugh to rock to wiggle
we long to hold you, touch you
and listen to you giggle
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She'll always be your mother
i'll always be your dad
you'll always be our child
the child that we had
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but now you're gone
and yet you're here
you are our sorrow and our joy
there's love in every tear
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just know our love goes deep and strong
we will forget you never
the child we had, but never had
and yet will have forever.
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This is also the inscription on millies headstone.
The following poem was read out at millies funeral
by my friend michelle.
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Like a flower whose tender petals never quite uncurled,
the child God gave us did not live to grow up in this world.
she did not stay to face the bitter winds of destiny,
but in our hearts, she left a sweet and fragrant memory.
In some other garden with the pain of life unknown,
safe within the fathers care, our little one has grown.........
but though we count the passing years,
the bud does not unclose, for to us,
she will always be........
a rosebud, never a rose...
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Thankyou for taking the time to read my story and thankyou to everybody for the lovely tributes and
candles. they are a great comfort to me. ♥
Please light a candle for my precious baby girl. xxx
Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Lit Again
As Usual On Sunday For Monday
MESSAGE FOR MY FAMILY FROM HEAVEN
To My Dearest Family,
Some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know,
That I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy
Just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you
Every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you
When my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me
And He said, "I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again,
You were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family,
They'll be here later on.
There's so much that we have to do,
To help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things,
That he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list,
Was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night
The day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....
In the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth,
And all those loving years.
Because you are only human,
They are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry:
It does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers,
Unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you
All that God has planned.
If I were to tell you,
You wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain,
Though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now,
Than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads
Ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it
By taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy
And I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world,
The world will give to you.
If you can help somebody
Who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night......
"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented....
That my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody
Who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up,
As on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street
And you've got Me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps
Only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go....
From that body to be free.
Remember you're not going.....
You're coming here to Me.
MISS ME..... BUT LET ME GO
We've known lots of pleasure,
At times endured pain,,
We've lived in the sunshine,
And walked in the rain. ,
But now we're separated .
And for a time apart,,
But I am not alone- ,
You're forever in my heart.,
Death always seems so sudden, ,
And it is always sure,,
But what is often forgotten-,
It is not without a cure.,
There may be times you miss me, ,
I sort of hope you do,,
But smile when you think of me,,
For I'll be waiting here for you.
Now there's many things for you to do,,
And lots of ways to grow,,
So get busy, be happy, and live your life,,
Miss me, but let me go.
MY FRIEND I CARE
Don’t tell me that you understand.
Don’t tell me that you know.
Don’t tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.
Don’t come at me with answers
That can only come from me.
Don’t tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.
Accept me in my ups and downs.
I need someone to share.
Just hold my hand and let me cry
And say, “My friend, I care"
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
FOR FRIDAY
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Love from Vicky xxx
This Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Lit Again As Usual On Sunday For Monday
Message from Heaven
I still hear the songs
I still see the lights
I still feel your love
I still share your hopes
And all of your cares
I'll even remind you
To please say your prayers
I just want to tell you
You still make me proud
You stand head and shoulders
Above the crowd
Keep trying each moment
To stay in his grace
I came here before you
To help set your place
You don't have to be
Perfect all of the time
He forgives you the slip
If you continue to climb
To my family and friends
Please be thankful today
I'm still close beside you
In a new special way
As I am now beside Jesus
In the heaven’s above
Please take care of each other
I send you my love
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"Angel"
Tear drops, slow and steady,
The pain so real and true,
God took another angel,
And that angel, dear, was you.
Memories and little prayers,
We all are mourning you,
But we’ll celebrate the short life you led;
We will never forget you.
I know God will look after you,
Now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon,
Your legacy will survive.
You’re beautiful, you’re endless,
Now stretch your wings and fly,
We love you so, I love you so,
But now we say goodbye.
Close your pretty eyes,
No more tears, just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully,
We know you did your best.
It was your time, so as we cry,
Go forward that extra mile,
You did what you were sent to do,
You made everybody smile.
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“The Best”
God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So He put His arms around you
And He whispered “Come to Me”
With tearful eyes we watched you.
We watched you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard-working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us,
He chose to take the best.
It’s lonesome here without you
We miss you more each day.
Life doesn’t seem the same
Since you have gone away.
When days are sad and lonely
And everything goes wrong,
We seem to hear you whisper
“Cheer Up and Carry On”
Each time we see your picture
You seem to smile and say,
“Don’t cry, I’m in God’s hands,
We’ll meet again someday!”
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The moment that you died
Our hearts were torn in two,
One side filled with memories,
The other died with you.
We often lie awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon our cheeks.
Remembering you is easy,
We do it everyday,
But missing you is heartache
That never goes away.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
We miss you in so many ways,
We miss the things you used to say,
And when old times we do recall,
It’s then we miss you most of all.
We miss you now, our hearts are sore,
As time goes by we miss you more,
Your loving smile, your gentle face,
No one can fill your vacant place.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
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This Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles will be lit as usual on Sunday for Monday
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An angel in the book of life
Wrote down our baby’s birth
She whispered as she closed the book
"Too beautiful for earth."
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You were a gift sent straight from Heaven.
Given to us from God above.
We didn't know how much you would teach us
About the meaning of true love...
For true love sometimes means letting go
Of someone precious and dear.
That is what we were forced to do...
Although we wanted to keep you here!!!
However, this is quite a selfish wish.
One we know we should ignore...
But, sweet loved one, we truly do believe
That God must have needed you more...
Perhaps to be an Angel now,
Full of wisdom and love...
Watching over those of us who love you
From the shining stars above.
We miss you more than you can know.
You will never be replaced...
In our hearts and memories forever,
Will be your sweet and innocent sleeping face.
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If Heaven Had A Phone
I cannot dial your number,
I can't get through to you,
I called the operator,
She did all that she could do.
There is no code for heaven,
I cannot place the call,
No numbers left to call,
I reckon I've tried them all.
If heaven had a phone,
I'd ring you every day,
If heaven had a phone,
There's things I want to say.
To tell you that I love you,
And miss you every day,
How much I prayed to god,
That he could let you stay.
If heaven had a phone,
I'd ring you every day,
If heaven had a phone,
I'd hear your voice, know you're okay,
I just want to speak to heaven,
Please do you have a direct line,
Operator says no number,
But your loved one is doing fine.
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God looked around his garden
And found an empty place
He then looked down upon this earth
And saw your tired face
He put his arms around you
And lifted you to rest
God’s garden must be beautiful
He always takes the best
He knew that you were suffering
He knew you were in pain
He knew that you would never
Get well on earth again
He saw that the road was getting rough
And the hills are hard to climb
So he closed your weary eyelids
And whispered, “Peace be thine”
It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn’t go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
For Friday
Heavens Playground xxx
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There’s a playground up in Heaven
Where all the children go
It’s a place that’s full of laughter
Unlike this world here below
There’s a playground up in Heaven
Where all our angels play
And the hearts there are so happy
Unlike our hearts feel today
There’s a garden up in Heaven
Where the roses blossom still
While below it feels like winter
All the angels feel no chill
In that garden up in Heaven
You will never find a tear
How we wish we could be with them
Or we still had them down here
There’s no crying in that playground
Just their happy faces there
There’s no pain and there’s no heartache
There’s no illness or despair
They’re too busy with their playing
They’re too happy making friends
It’s their parents wanting answers
And their broken hearts to mend
As they play in Heaven’s playground
All our little angels sing
They don’t question why they’re up there
They don’t ask for anything
All our children play together
In that playground in the sky.
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Lots of love always Millie, from vicky xxxxxx
angel footprints
These are my footprints,
So perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints,
Never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
For now I have my wings.
These tiny footprints were meant,
For other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
In the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
Of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
If you just give me a chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
And call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints,
Are found on mommy's heart.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll NEVER truly part.
Night night and sweet dreams princess, love from vicky xxxxxxxxxxx
angel footprints
These are my footprints,
So perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints,
Never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
For now I have my wings.
These tiny footprints were meant,
For other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
In the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
Of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
If you just give me a chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
In the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
And call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints,
Are found on mommy's heart.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll NEVER truly part.
Night night and sweet dreams princess, love from vicky xxxxxxxxxxx
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This Tribute Is For This Weekend
Candles Will Be Lit Again As Usual For Monday
LITTLE ANGELS
When God calls little children
To dwell with Him above,
We mortals sometimes question
The wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares
With the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world
Seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling
The aged to His fold.
So He picks a rosebud
Before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them
And so He takes but few
To make the land of heaven
More beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult,
Still somehow we must try.
The saddest word that mankind knows
Will always be 'goodbye'.
So when a little child departs,
We who are left behind
Must realise God loves children
Angels are hard to find.
If roses grow in heaven,
Lord Please pick one for me.
Place it in my Loved ones hand
And tell them it's from me.
Tell them that I love them
And when they turn to smile,
Place a kiss upon their cheek
And hold them for a while.
Remembering them is easy,
I do it every day.
But there's an ache within my heart
That will never go away.
I looked towards the clouds today
And for a moment saw your face.
I wondered just where you have gone
With hope it's a better place.
Did you show yourself to me today,
To tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
Playing tricks upon my sight?
We will always feel the void inside
Because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way
Lets us know you're near.
So until our journey nears its end
And we hear the angels sing,
We'll face each new day as it comes
And live off the love you bring.
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
We would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again.
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one can ever know.
But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more.
To remember all the happy times,
Life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten,
We pledge to you today:
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you'll always stay.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
Hey angel.. im so sorry i havnt been on for weeks.. so much has been happenin.. i hope you will understand and not hate me :-( you have never been out of my thoughts though....sendin u all my love and hugs as always..have a lovely week xxxx
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Thankyou so much for all your support friend..you have kept my dads candles burning while i havnt been on much,and have gave me so much support,i really dont know where i would be without you....
You really dont know how special you really are..all my love always xxxx hope ur ok? you know where i am if u want a chat or anything xxxx
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