| Location | Newton Heath |
| Age | 1 month, 25 days |
| Cause of Death | Cot Death/Sudden Infant Death Syndrome |
| Date of Birth | 02/08/2006 |
| Date of Death | 27/09/2006 |
| Visitors | 8,416 since 09/06/2008 |
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Millie was born on Wednesday 2 august 2006 and fell asleep on Wednesday 27 September 2006 aged 8
weeks.
she lived in newton heath with her Mummy and Daddy, Louise and John and her brother and sister,
Daniel and Lucy.
Millie also has a baby brother called Louie, he is 7mnths old and another brother called jack who
was born 5 wks ago ♥
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I would like to apologize to everyone for not lighting candles anymore, i really cant cope with
coming on here like i used to. my pain is getting worse and worse with each passing day and being on
here makes it worse at the moment. your angels are always in my thoughts and a big big thank-you for
still taking the time to visit Millie's site and light her a candle and leave tributes and pictures.
its such a comfort that even though I feel like iv abandoned her I know all my gts friends are still
here for her. from the bottom of my heart thank-you.
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I would like to thank each and every person who has lit candles and left tributes for my little girl
it means so much to me. so a big THANK-YOU.
my thoughts are with all of you and your angels.♥
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Millie was born 8 weeks early after a very difficult pregnancy(i suffered with ante-natal
depression, quite severely) there were no special care beds available at my local hospital so we
were sent to Rochdale, its not actually that far but it felt like a million miles away. my labor was
over in minutes once id started to push, in fact it was only one push. I only got to hold my
beautiful baby girl for a couple of minutes before she was taken to s.c.b.u. Having two other
children at home it was impossible for me to stay in hospital and was discharged two days later. I
spent most of my time traveling back and forth rather than with Millie, every day the nurses were
trying to get her transferred to Manchester. I specifically told the nurses that I wanted to be the
one to give her her first bath once she was out of the incubator. I arrived at the hospital one day
to find a nurse that I didn't really very much like was looking after Millie, she informed me very
matter of factly that she'd bathed Millie that morning. I couldn't believe my ears. it was clearly
stated in her notes mum to give first bath all I remember thinking at the time was what if anything
ever happens to her and I never gave her her first bath that thought still haunts me to this day.
After 14 days Millie was finally transferred back to Manchester and came home from there two days
later. it was so nice to actually spend all my time with her, I'd get up at 6am to feed her and I'd
stay up then an just lie on the couch with her, I really treasure those times I had on my own with
her. On Tuesday 26 Sep id been shopping with Millie and my other daughter Lucy, I cooked the tea and
waited for my partner (John) to come home. after tea I cleaned up an got the kids ready for bed, the
usual things. i don't remember what it was even about but john and I argued later on that evening
and I stormed off to bed. I didn't even give my baby a kiss. I just took it for granted I'd be able
to kiss her in the morning. The next thing I knew I was being woken by screams. it was 6am and my
baby was gone. the rest is pretty much a blur, there were ambulance, police, c.i.d. family coming to
take the other children. john went in the ambulance with Millie and I stayed behind with the police.
they took her bedding and bottles and questioned me. i know they have these procedures in place for
the poor little children that are murdered, but its so distressing for innocent people. I felt as
tho it was happening to someone else an I was stood by just watching. i never thought it was
possible to feel so numb. the worst thing was when they said they had to do a post mortem. they
wanted to cut my baby up and i couldn't even stop them. i took so many photos of her head before
they did it. I'm not even sure why I did that. it was 9 days before we got to lay our baby to rest.
she had a beautiful white horse an carriage and the horses were called diamond an bob,(how
appropriate when Millie is my little diamond bobbing in the sky) her flowers were beautiful too. I
imagined that I would hold it together till she was lowered into the ground as I thought that would
be the worst part. wrong. the moment I saw the cars pull up and they came in wanting to seal the
coffin, my heart crumbled into a million pieces. I had to put my baby in that box knowing that never
again would I see her, smell her, touch her, kiss her. even now I cant think about that moment
without crying. in my head I kept telling her that i didn't want to do it, but I had to. its coming
up to two yrs now since Millie died and not a day goes by where I don't think about her or long to
hold her.
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The following poem was read by my partner at our babys funeral.
O precious, tiny sweet little one
you will always be to me
so perfect, pure and innocent
just as you were meant to be.
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We dreamed of you and your life
and all that you would be
we waited and we longed for you
to join our family
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
We never had the chance to play
to laugh to rock to wiggle
we long to hold you, touch you
and listen to you giggle
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
She'll always be your mother
i'll always be your dad
you'll always be our child
the child that we had
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
but now you're gone
and yet you're here
you are our sorrow and our joy
there's love in every tear
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just know our love goes deep and strong
we will forget you never
the child we had, but never had
and yet will have forever.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
This is also the inscription on millies headstone.
The following poem was read out at millies funeral
by my friend michelle.
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Like a flower whose tender petals never quite uncurled,
the child God gave us did not live to grow up in this world.
she did not stay to face the bitter winds of destiny,
but in our hearts, she left a sweet and fragrant memory.
In some other garden with the pain of life unknown,
safe within the fathers care, our little one has grown.........
but though we count the passing years,
the bud does not unclose, for to us,
she will always be........
a rosebud, never a rose...
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Thankyou for taking the time to read my story and thankyou to everybody for the lovely tributes and
candles. they are a great comfort to me. ♥
Please light a candle for my precious baby girl. xxx
Light a Candle
Light a candle for those we mourn.
Into a new life they will be born.
Do not look for them at the gravesite.
They are somewhere else radiating their beautiful light.
They have gone to a new world where there is no darkness, no pain.
Their light and essence will always remain.
Light a candle for those who have left this mortal place.
They are free to travel through time and space.
When we think of them, they are near.
When we sit in a beautiful garden. Their voices we hear.
When we listen to a divine symphony,
We close our eyes, their faces we see.
Light a candle for they have not really gone.
With each flickering flame, in your hearts they will always belong.
THIS TRIBUTE IS FOR FRIDAY BUSY DAY FOR ME
Have A Good Weekend Everyone
If I Knew
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.
There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance to say
our "Anything I can do?"
But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear
Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.
Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
MERRY CHRISTMAS angel in heaven
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__________________I Have
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________________To Wish You
_______________Merry Christmas
______________And Also, A Happy
_____________New Year To You For
____________2009... I Hope The New
___________Year Brings You Loads Of
__________Happiness And Lots Of Fun.
_________I Hope You Have A Nice Day On
________Christmas Day, Filled With Lots Of
_______Angel Time.......And Of Course Eating
______Lots Of Nice Foods, And Candies. I Hope
_____That Santa Is Good To You As Well And He
___Brings You Loads Of Presents On Christmas Day
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jack
hey baby, your little brother jack was born last night, please watch over him and keep him well. love and miss you to the moon and back...mummy..xxxxxxxx
I LOOKED TOWARDS THE CLOUDS TODAY
I looked towards the clouds today
And for a moment saw your face.
I wondered just where you have gone
With hope it's a better place.
Did you show yourself to me today,
To tell me you're all right?
Or was it just a daydream
Playing tricks upon my sight?
We will always feel the void inside
Because you are not here.
But each new thought you send our way
Lets us know you're near.
So until our journey nears its end
And we hear the angels sing,
We'll face each new day as it comes
And live off the love you bring.
A Teddy For You ~xxxxx~
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BREEZE BY ERIKA HERNANDEZ
The breeze feels nice
the breeze is calm
Like touched by God
Under the sun
I see a flower...
as pretty as can be
I smile and I think I see
you looking at me
Now, you are in heaven
in the pretty blue sky
Now I know when the breeze feels nice
You are there with me
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┊　　 ┊┊　　 ★Sweet♥Dreams♥Angel★
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X FOR MUMMY AND FAMILY X
An Angel kissed my tears away today
when I was sad.
I wasn't feeling quite myself
my day had been so bad.
I felt a warmth brush by me
that quickly dried my tears.
A gentle, kind, and loving touch
that seemed to hold me near.
Immediately, I felt so much better
and the day seemed brighter too.
I guess that's just the way you feel
when an Angel comforts you.
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XxX WITH LOVE LORRAINE AND FAMILY XxX
for you!
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